Tell us how you really feel # ?

Hello my supporting cast, this one’s long overdue.

I can’t even remember the last time I blogged without masking behind one of my fictional characters. I apologize if I’ve been distant.

Lately I’ve been having much more “success” writing in that format as opposed to blogging this way. I guess words flow when parts of you are sprinkled into your writing, instead of these segments; which when I think about it, is really just me thinking out loud. I’ve also dabbled into poems lately and I’d have to say they are more challenging than anything literature based I’ve ever attempted. Maybe, I’m starting to develop some direction in all of this, or maybe I’m just losing my touch.

This page has matured with me, grown with me, at least I’d like to think – I never thank you – the viewers (including myself) for what it’s all done for me. I don’t always seem immediate results, but I really can’t see the person I’d be if I wasn’t able to express myself in words over the fifty entries I’ve made on this domain in the past few years. If my activity has dwindled lately, it’s not that I’ve disappeared, it just means I’m living; and more importantly learning. I’ve signed up for multiple Blog 101 seminars, but I never end up reading a single entry. I’m not interested in forcing myself to blog about anything, for the sake of posting.

The Actor Playing Me was an experiment, to view myself from a third-person perspective. In more ways than one, it’s accomplished that. I’ve taken on the roles of a killer, a lover, a cheater, a woman, an addict, a bisexual, an adult and a child – I’ve really lived multiple lives – even if for only a few short sentences in these entries. I can’t think of any other way one life can account for so many. In this subtle way, I’m blessed.

 Sometimes I feel like quitting, but I simply won’t allow myself. As I continue to live on, so will this blog – The Camera’s Always Rolling



About 50 shadesof jay

I figure I can browse for a home on the line, faster than i'll be able to buy one made of bricks.
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